Although I stopped going to meetings a year ago, I still pray to God every day for direction and understanding. Nothing yet, but I always want to feel accountable to a "Higher Being". In my case, not having accountability to a "Higher Being", will cause me to go down that "Rabbit Hole" of no return.
James Jack
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Lingering doubts and internal debates
by Huxley1979 inhello, i am in the beginning stages of a slow fade.
over the years i have become more and more dissatisfied with the beliefs, teachings, and organizational practices of the organization.
i no longer have faith in it.
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Tips for a Slow Fade
by Huxley1979 ini'm a born and raised witness.
i was an elder for almost 20 years.
almost the same in fulltime service.
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James Jack
My life mirrors yours. About 4 years ago, I signed up with my local Chamber of Commerce and started attending their monthly luncheons, new business openings, public events etc. I have met some really great people and formed friendships with them. I contacted 3 cousins that I ignored for the last 40 years because of the faith, apologized to them for my detachment, and now I have meaningful relationships with them. Went to my 40 year High School reunion for the 1st time, a friend from High School was the lead singer in the band and invited me to sing a Beatle song that we used to sing in high school on stage. It's like we never missed a beat.
Then, I contacted my best friend from high school on Facebook, apologized to him for dumping when I became a JW at age 22. My wife and I stayed with him and his wife for 3 days and had a blast. Now, they are coming to spend a week with us. My point is, you need to take the first step in reaching out. I'm very involved with my community now. We stopped going to the meetings a year ago. One Elder and two current CO's have been texting me a lot lately, I just text back, "I'm heartbroken and depressed that we are well into the 21 first century and that The End, that was supposed to come before the end of the 20th Century never happen. My wife and I have a combined 38 years of Regular Pioneering, Monthly RBC Projects, Convention, Assemblies work because we believed the Organization!"
Now, I'm 61, tired, broke, have no retirement, and working 3 jobs trying to survive. "Where is this promised paradise?
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2020-May-16-S-147-E--Announcement in English and Spanish!
by Atlantis inif you are on the email list these letters are already in your refrigerator.. 2 letters arrived, the same letter in english and spanish.. 2020-may-16, s-147-e announcementif you are not on the email list, reply below if you want the link put in your pm box.petra!
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James Jack
Please add me to your regular mailing list.
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Quarantine, A Time for Self Reflection
by 1234 in"are they keeping you busy?".
i'm not quite sure what this means but maybe you have been asked this question in the pass.
as in busyness is some kind of sign that things are going good.
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James Jack
Nicely said my friend
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Reel to reel tapes and old Watchtower literature
by lastmanstanding init's been an emotional few weeks going through old watchtower literature, i mean old.
i have saved many things, some you have never seen.
particularly related to 1975, i have wts literature, even a big newspaper article about the 1975 prediction.. today, i started going through the reel to reel tapes.
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James Jack
Put it up on the Board
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8 Documents Arrived Today!
by Atlantis in1.--authorization and release agreementfor disaster relief medical assistance.
------------------------------------------------------------------2.--for the attention of all elders------------------------------------------------------------------.
3.--additional direction regarding assistance with practical needs------------------------------------------------------------------.
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James Jack
Please send these letters to me please
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2020-May-S-147-E Announcements And Reminders!
by Atlantis infriends, atlantis is receiving so much stuff so quickly, it is hard to keep up with it all.. the 2020 may announcements and reminders just came in also.
(s-147-e) in english and german.. if you want those just say so in the replies.. petra!.
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James Jack
Count me in! Send me please.
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Witnesses - Trey Bundy
by joey jojo inwatching right now with my wife.
we are both born ins but have been out for a long time.
my wife dislikes pretty much most things about the jw's and not much surprises her about the org but even she had to take a break because she was appalled by the cover up.
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James Jack
What are you trying to say?
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Whatever became of Marvin Shilmer?
by careful in12 hours ago someone resurrected a post by marvin shilmer from years ago.
it was then that i realized that i haven't seen a post from him for a while.
a check shows it's been 4 years.
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James Jack
Barbara Anderson requested some talk outlines from me and the return address was listed as "Marvin Shilmer".
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Taking Control
by Tech49 into recap: pimo/fading, continually in the process of dis-engaging.. as part of an ever-blossoming departure from the ways in which i grew up and spent a lot of my adult life, i had a moment recently where i took some of my own control back..... let me explain.. one defining moment i had about 8 years ago was when i shredded my "blood card", or dpa.
i had decided that those beliefs were not the ones i supported.
it was a little scary, taking that little step, that really only i knew about.. fast forward: recently, as i grow older and need the standard tests that come with age, i had the opportunity to reclaim even more of my independence from previously-held doctrine and beliefs.
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Giordano
I never prayed before sex, just to have more of it!